And I come to the end of another year.
This one was more interesting by far easily one of the worst and best years of my life, funny how that works out. my summer went pretty well made some money welding, i was assembling dump-truck boxes ranging from 2-8 tons roughly. welding in itself is a dirty job, and i worked with a bunch of french people not that i dont like them but i dont think they liked me, but i was bigger then them hehe made some friends there and eventually i did get there respect, possibly because for someone who is welding for the first time i picked up the trade very fast, by about a 2 months i was fixing peoples mistakes who have had a year or two the job experience and doing those really fucked up welding that no one wanted to fuck with, i should also say that these boxes completed a worth an average $20,000 and high standards are expected. Its kinda funny to think these things are swung 10 feet off the ground, injuries are no stranger to that place. Example someone got knocked in the head and lost his sence of smell and taste. but about 3 months or so i got laid off along with 25 other people, basically a slowdown in contracts so senority plays its part and the newest 25 people were let go. oh well 1 month left till school so i relaxed. spent alot of time with Michelle at here place and at mine basically living with each other.
In the beginning of august I went to a pagan festival for about 4 days lots of fun, for me it was to learn and immerse myself in another culture and customs. Most of the time there i spent next to naked and other times I was, Michelle also but topless. Either way it was alot of fun and i met some of the nicest people there. Merchants also, so i spent a few hundred and got a black cargo kilt, ive always wanted one, so yeah its freaken awesome. The night is great here with these people dancing around a fire, loud drums, mead and a onslaught of home made brew and free nudity, meaning no one cared it was ok. It was nice to get away from the world for a bit and just enjoy your day and the people your with. The funny thing about this festival is that it happens every year for about 17 years now, literally in my backyard, like a halfhour walk through some forest. either way beutiful people and i had a great time there.
Shortly after I went to my dads place and gave him a hand with some wiring in the ancient house, cloth wiring yeah i mean old pain in the ass. About 5 days before im supposed to start school while im working at my dads, i get a odd call from my sister.
My mom is acting a bit strange, she says. So i called home and had a very disturbing conversation with her. So immediately I left my dads place and spent the next four days with my mom and on the second day things got bad enough that i had to bring her to the hospital. So naturally my Mom was upset and so was i cause she had to stay there for three night and such. Things got worst before they got better but the just platued to a steady, "things are a bit off". either way during this time, trip to the hospital and other things took priority over school and I tried to stay away from home its was more annoying then anything. Mostly because i wanted to focus on school at times it worked but sometimes not and i would miss class cause i was up all nights sometimes i really couldnt sleep. well enough of that. the out come my semester took a blow and didnt recover but I did pass one class C++ programming.
This christmas was intersting first time i really went out to get gifts for family and friends. i got a tablet from Michelle, its freaken sweet. And with it i hope to update this account. Ive already done a few peices since the semester finished and will be doing more.
Me and michelle are past our 9 months and i love her, she helped me through alot this semester and has always been there for me and im thankful, I love you Michelle.
but yeah im taking off now time to party its new years anyways
HAPPY NEWYEAR
l8r

So to begin my school semester was alright, but there was a strike and sent the entire semester and faculty into a whirling pile of hell so i ended up withdrawing from two out of my 8 course and passing the rest which is better then alot of people did this semester.
so my school is finished for now so i got a job
im welding nowim making just under 16 bucks an hour and 10 hour days. work from monday to thursday and i make about 500 a week it aint too shabby i wont complain it hard, hot work but its a good skill and i rather like it, also leaves some impresssive scars when you get burnt, ie like the hole in my wrist from molten metal falling in my glove.
back a few months ago i went to this thing in montreal C.O.M.A.3 i went with krystal and a few other people i diodnt really know at the beginning but know well now. the show was an industrial/noise festival i suppose three day at 12 hours a pop of music for 50 bucks after parties as well. making it possible to keep dancing for those three days.either way it was freaken awesome i had a blast and got to to see a shadier side of montreal but meeh it was fun.
Me and krystal have desides it would be better is we remained friends, shes still close to me and i care for her alot still baiscally we are very good friends and i would do alot for her. Now im dating another girl her name is Michelle, shes and animal lover wants to be a vet and shes the sweetest thing ever. i think the most ammusing thing though is our size difference im 6'3 about 220 lbs and she is 5 foot nothing and 90 lbs, so yeah its cute and yeah lol, either way im madly in love with her.

well thats all i can think of right now
im going to be re-submitting a few works as i have mentioned earlier. and i have a few things to work on in my spare time. yeah well that it for me
l8r

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SO yeah life not to bad im back in school now not too bad either except for my math courses, two of them. My calculus im not worried about cause all i needed was a bit of a review and i aced the mid term. What does worry me though is my strength of materials holy crap i gotta read my text book geez i dont remember and am having to struggle through the assignments but im managing sorta. gotta go to my classes too hehe opse.
The tattooing thing is going a bit slow and i didnt get my car yet and i cant really worry about those things now cause of school i cant afford to use up too much time with those things at this time. right now things i have made to work in favour to my school work.
And i have good news very good news her name is Krytal (attacks blanket and hugs it)
and i miss her so much now and i just got home from her place. shes such and amazing people i cant begin to describe the feelings i have for her cause i know she will read this and im shy but ill say this much i havent felt like this for anyone before never this strong never has someone made me this giddy this nervous i look into her eyes and i feel paralysed i miss her so much now hugs mass blankets helplessly hehe. Shes also an amazing artist and shes got a site here too [link] shes so beutiful so cute an amazing mind and were alike and and ahhh


hehe yeah i couldnt the one with the overly excited emo that shakes at the end lol
shes been the one person if felt i can open up too completely, honestly ive had some bad days and just seeing her or talking to her made me feel alot better

but yeah (hugs blanket)
so on that note my life is GREAT right now
im going to be re submitting some of my work cause when i first tried to get them digitally i took a picture with a digi cam and well the didnt turn out so well and im going to scan then, now that i hav access to one and plus i have a few more works to submit
and my god i hope i can get my tattooing equipment soon i want to practice
yeah so that about it all i can think of right now
i feel alive again and im happy and ....i miss her hehe
illttyl8r

and krystal this is for you

ahhh i found it this is the emo i was looking for <--- how i feel in a nutshell
and its all thanks to a special women whom im Crazy about

WEEee im happy
lol
ok l8r people
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so yeah its been a while since i wrote in here lol in the last episode i was going to find out if i was going to afghanistan. well that never happened it got shit canned basically the officers i think were a bit lazy in getting the paper work done so oh well i didnt go, would have been a nice vacation and 15000 bucs to boot meeh shit happens. before i wanted to go i had plans to do alot of things before i went back to school in january, so i decides to set my sight on that again first i needed a car.
so i had a car for a while but i just wasnt road worthy i needed to fix somethings on it before i could saftey it well once i got alot done on it i brought it to the shop in the little town at my dads. if i hadnt mentioned before the car was at my dads place and i went there to work on it. well it turns out the car was shot it drives but the frame is too far gone rusted i mean to be safetied lol the cars almost 20 years old hehe but i guess me letting it sit for so long didnt help, its so depressing too cause i did devote alot of days to that car. so with that car out of my way i started to look for another car. there were a few really good deal i felt but i havent been able get to them in time cause i dont have a car to go and see the cars, secondly my dads car had problems of his own basically i helped him with that. i suppose i should explain what its like for me at my dads, summed up in one word depressing. i dont know why but i can never seem to feel good or even really get anything done there for more then a couple hours say. i spent so many days there honestly just wasting time and having no abition to do other wise.
during my time there i did have a few chances to get out and go see some friends. i suppose i shouldnt have gone out see how i felt being with friend seem to have only made it worst ause i didnt want to be with them at all when they were there i ignored them and scolded them when they bothered me. and even after that i email one of my friends, shes like one of the most important people to me in this world, emailed her back an wrote about how i was feeling and shit but still havent got any reply to it, but since then we have seen eachother and everything seems good. after that day anyway when i was upset i couldnt even eat for about a week i couldnt understand what got into me. btu when i went back to my dads i was basically not getting anything done that i wanted to do and helping him with the things he needed to get done. well a few heated arguments later i left. ive been home for about a week now
i still have so much pressure on me right now and its my own doing but hey w/e i suppose there is no time like the present to get the shit i want to do to get it done i have like a month and a half before i get bac in school so i really need to get the ball rolling.
so yeah on a different not i had a holloween party, i made my own costume for it too i had about 50 pounds of chain comming off of me i was tring to go for a sentibite one of those hellraiser things lol but it seemed to look like alot of different things. it was cool cause i got my hands on some rubber injuries like exposed bones and ribcage and with the chains i suppose it was like a zombie lol of a tourture victim lol some people even said a dead ninja lol one thing that work real nicly was my friend vik had some black wings and when i wore them well i looked like a dead angle or something along those lines. over all i had a great night i went out a bit early though but whatever i was tired lol
last friday was rememberence day with my unit we did the usual parade at the legion then after got drunk off our asses. lol, i started drinking at noon and didnt stop till about 130 in the evening i had over 30 beer that day and what was good too was i was constintly eating too. hell and not even a hangover the next day lol i went to bed at about 6 though slept quite abit well till about 3 int he afternoon then the next day i drank some more lol ,after last weekend i think im not going to drink for a bit lol i never drink like that and after your done you really feel it was a waste cause well your wallet gets a beating for one, well actually somethings are good lol i got stories that i will be telling my grand-kids hehe.
so yeah thats been a short simple version of my life to date
btw for those of you that like anime download paranoia agent really plays with the concept of reality and illusion the last episode was the greatest but you have to watch previous 12 episodes to get it. anyways i hope you enjoyed this journal which as i see now is pretty long lol
well theres no time like the present so im going to go get sometihng done now lol

well id first like to say sorry about the last entry i may have worried a few people
the whole afghanistan thing im going to find out tongiht and see if im going or not i dont really feel like going anymore ive tried hard to get my name in the list to go but i dont know what the hell is going on so i think im going to make other plans for the next upcomming months
but we will see i may still go its alot of money
and in all honesty ive heard its quite safe there (dont try to say different unless you have been there tv is not a source of realiable info)
ahh but it sucks so much there tearing camp juilian down its one of the most impressive bases ive ever seen oh and plus i dont feel like eating hard rations (army war food) for 6 weeks lol but meeh
so im looking forward to tonight and what the verdict will be about what i am doing with the next 3 months of my life
it will but nice though if i would stay home ill just work and use the money to get new computer parts and tattooing equipment
but i wont have any surplus when i go back to school in january but ohwell i suppose
i wonder what everyone thinks about this though
is it worth the tough time in the stan for 15000 dollars not taxed hardly reduced by only items i would desire to buy when im there i dont pay for food sleeping quaters and gas for that instance
im axctaully very interested in what other people think
well thats about it for now
ttyl